We all experience seasons where we feel distant from The Most High. Whether it’s because of heartbreak, disappointment, busyness, or even shame, the disconnect can happen so subtly that we don’t even realize how far we’ve wandered until we’re completely overwhelmed, exhausted, or spiritually numb. But here’s the truth: no matter how far we’ve drifted, The Most High never left us. We left Him. He is still near. Always has been and always will be. He leaves it up to you to want to return to Him or not. And just like forefathers and mothers in scripture, the door to return home is always open — not with condemnation, but with love, grace, and healing. It may not feel easy because with returning home does come realization of shame, but the key is not allowing that shame to consume you, make you, or break you to the point of no return. (Psalms 130:7, Jeremiah 29:11)
Recognizing the Distance
Before healing begins, we have to first recognize that we’ve stepped away. This isn’t about guilt-tripping ourselves — it’s about being honest. Have you stopped praying consistently? Are you making decisions without seeking The Most High’s guidance? Do you feel spiritually dry, like your soul is disconnected? Do you consider The Most High during times of calamity and times of joy? Once you can openly and honestly answer these questions then the possibility of return opens. Hope. (Isaiah 40:31)
What Pulls Us Away
Sometimes life gets heavy. Maybe your prayers weren’t answered the way you hoped because you assumed it would look one way or another. Maybe following commandments felt more like rules than relationship. Or maybe you’ve been in survival mode, making choices out of fear rather than faith, so they’ve led you further and further away from keeping commands or perhaps lacking trust in others around you so much so you aren’t so nice to the world around you or yourself. (Psalms: 139: 7-9, Proverbs 28:13)
These moments don’t make you unworthy of connection — they make you mankind. And they’re exactly the moments where The Most High wants to meet you, not after you’ve “fixed” everything, but right in the middle of your mess. To show upmost trust and faith in Him despite it all falling down, even if they were your poor choices, who are you in the face of realizing that you were wrong and need help? (Psalms 9: 9-10, Psalms 46:1)
Rebuilding the Relationship
Returning to The Most High isn’t about performing or being perfect — it’s about being present. Here are a few gentle ways to begin rebuilding that connection:
- Talk to Him, honestly. No script needed. No learned verbatim prayer from childhood or when you eat. Just speak from your heart. Tell Him how you feel. He already knows, and He’s not afraid of The truth nor how you feel.
- Create space again. Set aside quiet moments for prayer, journaling, or just sitting in silence. It doesn’t have to be long — just intentional. He knows whether you are genuinely seeking Him or not, so make it count or don’t do it at all. (Proverbs 16:3)
- Reconnect through Scripture. Sometimes we forget who He is because we’ve stopped listening. Go back to His words. Let them remind you of His character — loving, patient, and full of mercy. Open your bubble to letting His essence and presence into your life through the words written from long ago that still hold the same weight they did the day they were written. (Lamentations 3:25)
- Forgive yourself. Often, the biggest barrier is shame. But The Most High isn’t holding your past over your head — so you don’t have to either. It’s not your job to punish yourself or try to figure out what it will be, how long or even if there is one. The very act of you feeling guilty or hiding from Him feeling unworthy just might be a punishment in itself that you are inflicting all on your own. (Isaiah 43:25)
He’s Still There
The beautiful part about spiritual grounding is that it’s not about arriving at perfection — it’s about returning to presence. The Most High is a loving Father/Husband, not a distant taskmaster, dictator, or ruler of some sort. He’s not keeping score. He just wants your heart back. (Jeremiah 24:7, Psalms 51:17)
So if you’ve been wandering, or just feel distant, know this: you CAN return home today. One prayer. One breath. One honest moment — that’s all it takes to step back into alignment. You are still His. Still loved. Still welcome.
Returning to The Most High is more than just a spiritual reset — it’s a sacred part of the Journey to Self that is between you and Him only. As you draw near to Him, you will learn more of who you truly are. In learning about His character, you’ll start to hear Him speak to the deeper parts of you — your purpose, your worth, your calling. Because finding Him isn’t separate from finding yourself… it’s one and the same.
